I think that I am finally ready to grow up. Sure, I can be frugal, balance a checkbook, cook meals and keep a clean house. I can take care of children, make sure E's clothes are clean and keep the fruit flies at bay. I can even act as the D.D. in some instances (okay! rarely may be a better word here- but at least I am willing). But, in no way, have I allowed myself the chance to actually 'grow up' since graduation and I think it may be time.
Here I am- 4 years later- without the stability that I thought that I would always have. I have lived in 7 states in the past 4 years. I have had numerous 'jobs'. I have been so sure of what I was going to do with my life dozens of times, only to have it change the next day.
I stayed up most of last night contemplating what I have done wrong since Centre. Was it moving in with E. too soon? Was it traveling around trying to find a temporary solution to my unemployment and never really focusing my attention on one thing? Have I been searching for some deeper meaning to my life that I just can't seem to find? Hmmm....
Then I realized: Did any job I have really make me happy enough to stick with it for very long? NO. Do I follow my heart every single time I make a decision? YES. Am I happy? YES. Is there hope for someone like me? TOTALLY.
Then why have I been so discouraged? There are plenty of similar people in the world. We believe that money is a silly means to an end, moving is simple and pleasurable, job-changes come with the territory because we have an interest in everything, traveling is essential... we are adaptable solely because we understand that time is precious and life is short. We need to see and experience everything there is in the world before it is too late. We aren't lazy, boring, anarchists... we are restless and uncontrollably excited to be part of this world. We are Born Under a Wanderin' Star.
Oh Lee Marvin- how you sing to me!
When I get to heaven, tie me to a tree
For I'll begin to roam and soon you'll know where I will be
I was born under a wandrin' star
A wandrin' wandrin' star
For I'll begin to roam and soon you'll know where I will be
I was born under a wandrin' star
A wandrin' wandrin' star
This blog is about the journey through my late 20's with one mission- to become a functioning adult while maintaining my true, wanderin' self (and I might just throw some random commentary in here about our country's state of affairs- I am passionate, after all) . Hopefully it speaks to everyone that is fed up with hearing "get a job. focus on something. you are characterized by where you work- now find something to do." Sometimes, we just can't. We are Renaissance Souls. We are a different breed.
Staying true,
Staying true,
Wanderin' Star
